sorry for gibberish

i'm on an edge
about something
about several things
so i guess i am balanced on blades

i'm waiting all tense for something? anything? to happen
but it's up to me to make it happen
or it's inevitable and bearing down
compressing my gut into an anxious knot

i also feel guilty
and alone
and jealous
and angry
and bored
and tired

one more makes it perfect, so . . .

i feel
afraid