I want to come up with a clever metaphor or put myself in someone else's shoes to deal with this, but I'm too tired.
It finally happened. I let myself sit still until my only option was the one thing I never wanted.
I kept doing this in school, trapping myself into stupidity over and over again, so I don't know why I imagined I'd be any different in real life.
I'm stuck, and I didn't even put up a fight. How's that for pathetic.
What happened? You can always send me a text, dear.
ReplyDeleteDarlin', I get what you mean, and all, but even though you're stuck somewhere you don't want to be right now, you can always get out.
ReplyDeleteI have done that same thing more times than I care to remember, darlin', but the more I do it, the more I fight the next time around.
I could, like, talk about the donkey that stood on the dirt or the mouse that churned milk into butter or whatever, but the truth of the matter is, people get stuck where they don't want to be all the time, and some people turn that into strength to fight their way out, and some people turn it into strength to accept where they are (etc. and etc.), and you can do whatever you want.
Just pick a direction and start moving, and you'll find that it's not as bad as you feared.
I tell you this because I really, really, really was (and am) in the same situation in more ways than one. You are not pathetic. You're just figuring out what kind of person you want to be, what your priorities are. You don't have to get it right the first time.
I love you a ton, darlin', and I want you to know that whatever you do (or don't do), you're always going to be awesome to me. For reals.