It's all fine

I'll never say it out loud,

-especially not to you-

but I feel it just as much,

or maybe more.

Every second I'm allowed

-especially the ones with you-

is another moment treasured,

one I store.

I can't possibly give it a name,
-particularly not to your face-
so I smile my secret thought
and look away.

You'll never see my little game,
-though I'm playing it to your face-
and whether I'm glad or not,
it's okay.