I just don't, anymore. I used to, with everything in me, all my "heart" as they say. Didn't worry, but things were oh so worrisome and I should have, it should be, should have been, but I used to.
Trust, I mean. I just don't, anymore.
No, you didn't hurt me. I may have thought you were a pillar and maybe you were holding up that fragile thing that I lost somewhere, lost it for good this time I think, but you didn't hurt me. Didn't need the breakable bits anyhow.
The end of the world, we all thought, and we all said no to that. More of us then. Solid to prop up each other, stand firm together and none of our brittleness will be vulnerable. I used to, didn't worry, and I should have, but I used to.
Collapsed, every single one.
Except me.
So I don't, anymore. Trust, I mean. I just don't.
This is beautiful and terrible and sad, dear.
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